L I F E

I don't know where to start, where to leave and start over, all over again. This feeling is empty. An excruciating pain that leaving me numb and anesthetized by the overflowing emotion. Tears flowing down my face on every sleepless night. Why am I here, placed in such agony? Your images scattered all our the thought and I couldn't help but remembering. Forgetting couldn't be this torturous and never this hard. 

Freedom is all I have until what I feel is a severe loneliness tormenting my soul, brought me down hitting rock bottom. I am broken, imperfect, damaged and torn. Is this world even true to myself? Where am I going? I am lost, between the road, I am clueless. Sitting in a corner, alone and lonely witnessing what had happened, silently screaming and burst out howling.

This pain is for myself, a consequence of choices. And now my life is fragmented and flawed, the scars won't leave and healing would drag me to another part of throbbing journey. How can I make use of this sorrow? Pulling something good out of sadness? Continue living with broken pieces, pretending to be strong and keep ignoring the fact of life.

If staying strong was the only option, I refuse to be strong. If loneliness was the consequence I have to face, I carry on in denial.

-Kamal Effendi

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I love his writing! Especially on this one. He really did explains everything that I couldn't. Indeed, i couldn't find any words to describe what i'm feeling right now, until i found this. Maybe not all of it, but at least 90% of what's inside me was all written in that beautiful post from this young gentleman. :')

Hmmm.. Life's hard though. Must keep going. Chin up and smile to the sun. :D

Warkah

Hanya sampai di sini sahaja

Kisah cinta kita berdua

Tiada daya selamanya

Terhenti di sini

Biar ku pujuk hati ini

Merawat rinduku sendiri

Setelah aku kau lukai

Sedangkan kau tahu

Kasih aku hanyalah untukmu

Tiada lain dalam diriku

Takkan berubah

walau dipisah laut biru

Cinta aku hanyalah untukmu

Tak pernah goyah, tak pernah jemu

Takkan terpadam dalam hatiku

Ia milikmu, percayalah

Mungkin sudah suratan kita

Terpisah sebegini saja

Pasti di satu hari nanti

Ku jejak bahgia

Kasih aku hanyalah untukmu

Tiada lain dalam diriku

Takkan berubah

walau dipisah laut biru

Cinta aku hanyalah untukmu

Tak pernah goyah, tak pernah jemu

Takkan terpadam dalam hatiku

Ia milikmu, percayalah

Mungkin sudah suratan kita

Terpisah sebegini saja

Pasti di satu hari nanti

Ku jejak bahgia

- Lara Lagi by Adira.

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Lama tak update blog tiba-tiba post entry macam ni kan. Haha. Suka hati gua la. Gua punya blog. Tiba-tiba tadi layan Ombak Rindu. Tiba-tiba terminat lagu ni bila dia asyik ulang2 je pasang masa part Aaron Aziz. Lol okay takde kaitan dengan Aaron pun sebenarnya. 

Ah, lara lagi.........

Ok bye nak log out. (curi masa je ni)

Motivation.

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Be strong now, because things will get better.

It might be stormy now, but it can't rain forever.

Resepi : Pavlova

Untuk pengetahuan semua, aku ambil masa yang sangaaaattt lama untuk start projek baking pavlova ni. Buat research sana sini. Ceh macam student PhD pun ada. Lol. Yelah, buat pavlova ni memang la nampak senang, tapi banyak pantang larang kena jaga ohh. Sangat memerlukan kesabaran dan ketekunan. Tapi bahan2 dia memang simple habis. Paling-paling pun korang kena keluarkan duit lebih sikit untuk beli whipping cream dia and buah2 untuk letak atas tu.

Aku refer banyak gile blog untuk mendapatkan pavlova yang terbaik. Bila baca orang komen, kadang cuak jugak. Ada yang tak jadi, telur tak kembang, pavlova mendap, hancur bla3. Sebab tu kena research lebih sikit. Dan akhirnya aku pun tekad untuk refer resepi daripada Salam Dua Benua dan Cahaya Cintaku . Ada beberapa lagi blog yang aku refer, tapi tak ingat dah mana. Huhu minta halal ye semua. Okay enough  membebel. Jom check resepiii! (copy paste je)

Pavlova:
- 4 large eggs, separated (ambil putih telur je)
-3/4 cup caster sugar (gula halus)
-1/2 tbsp cornflour
-1 teaspoon (sudu kecil) white vinegar (cuka yang biasa tu)
-1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract

Topping:

- 1 cup (240 ml) non dairy whipping cream

- 1 tablespoons caster sugar (adjust ikut sedap rasa)

- 1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract

- Fresh fruits - kiwi, strawberries, raspberries, blackberries, passion fruit, peaches, pineapple, or other fruit of your choice

Itu je bahan-bahan dia. Nak buat pavlova ni ada pantang larang, antaranya :

1) Telur mestilah in room temperature. Takmau yang sejuk from peti ais tu. 

2) Pastikan masa korang asingkan telur putih and kuning tu, segala peralatan mangkuk ke spatula or anything, kering tanpa setitik pun air. Kalau ada setitik pun air, nanti masa pukul telur, telur taknak kembang. Sama jugak masa nak pukul whipping cream.

3) Masa asingkan telur, pastikan takde kuning telur yang masuk dalam putih telur tadi. Kalau tak, tak menjadilah pavlova anda ye. Hehe

4) Pastikan whipping cream yang digunakan adalah jenis non dairy. Aku guna jenama Rich's. Dan pastikan cream tu betul-betul sejuk sebelum nak pukul. Kalau boleh mixing bowl pun sejukkan sekejap dalam freezer.

Okay itu antara tips-tips yang WAJIB dipatuhi kalau korang taknak korang punya pavlova hancuss. Baiklah, mari move on kepada cara-cara memasaknya.

Pavlova

- Preheat oven to 150 degrees C for 15 minutes. (guna api bawah)

- Line a baking sheet with parchment paper and draw a 7 inch (18 cm) circle on the paper. Turn the parchment paper over so the circle is on the reverse side.

(Don't forget to place rack in center of oven)

- In the bowl of your electric mixer, with the whisk attachment, beat the egg whites on medium speed until they hold soft peaks. (dah kembang tapi still soft and berbuih2 macam tu)

- Start adding the sugar, a tablespoon at a time, and continue to beat, on high speed, until the meringue holds very stiff and shiny peaks.(test guna jari nak tengok gula dah fully dissolved or not) The meringue should feel smooth, not gritty. If it feels gritty the sugar has not fully dissolved so keep beating until it feels smooth between your fingers). Beat in the vanilla extract.

- Sprinkle the vinegar and cornstarch over the top of the meringue and, with a rubber spatula, gently fold in. Spread the meringue inside the circle drawn on the parchment paper, smoothing the edges, making sure the edges of the meringue are slightly higher than the center. (You want a slight well in the center of the meringue to place the whipped cream and fruit.)

- Bake for 50 minute to 1 hour (depending on the oven) or until the outside is dry and is a very pale cream color. (guna api atas bawah)

- Turn the oven off, leave the door slightly ajar, and let the meringue cool completely in the oven. (The outside of the meringue will feel firm to the touch, if gently pressed, but as it cools you will get a little cracking and you will see that the inside is soft and marshmallowy.) 

For whipping cream:

-Whip the cream in your electric mixer, with the whisk attachment, until soft peaks form. Sweeten with the sugar and vanilla and then mound the softly whipped cream into the center of the meringue. Arrange the fruit randomly, or in a decorative pattern, on top of the cream. Serve immediately as this dessert does not hold for more than a few hours.

So amacam? Pening nak baca? Hahah kalau pening nak baca, just klik dekat  link blog yang aku bagi kat atas tadi. Diorang tunjuk step by step punya untuk amateur macam kita. Muehehe. Dan ini adalah gambar2 pavlova saya!

Ini sebelum bakar. 

Tepi tu adjust dan ratakan guna pisau butter supaya dia tak crack lepas bakar.

Ini after bakar dan sudah siap dihias! Hehe. Still ada crack sikit.

Berat sangat kot buah2 tu

Nyummm tengok lapisan dalam dia yang warna putih tu.

Sebijik macam rasa marshmallow!

Suku pavlova sudah selamat masuk perut.  >:)

Okay itu je.. Happy baking everyone! Adios!

So close, yet so far.

Bismillahirahmanirrahim....

Fullamak, tak tahu nak mula macam mana ni. Lama betul tak update ya. Entah ada lagi ke tak orang yang sudi baca blog ni (sila baca dengan nada sedih). Hish aku memang problematic sikit when it comes to commitment. Well, any types of commitments. If you know what I mean...... Ok whatever.

Everything goes well so far. SO FAR lah. Tengah syok cuti sem ni. Haha syok la sangat kan. Memang masa aku banyak spent dekat rumah je, BAKING. Hewhew. Ada yang menjadi, ada yang setakat elok untuk makan je. Hahah.

Dan antara yang menjadi nya......

Blueberry Cheesecake

Lasagna.

Spaghetti

Potato Wedges with homemade cheesy sauce.

Pavlova.

So inilah dia antara yang sempat buat. Hehe. Pavlova tu baru buat tadi! Kagum dengan diri sendiri. Tak sangka berjaya buat. Kehkeh. Untuk resepi Pavlova dan Cheesy Sauce tu, aku update dekat next entry kay! Doakan aku rajin lah ye. :p

Oh ye, minggu lepas sempat jalan-jalan dekat sini bersama tut tutttt. Heheh. Nampak tak kuda belakang tu? Cantik okay tempat ni! Cuba teka dekat mana? Korang mesti tak caya kalau aku cakap. Ini adalah dekat Uniten Bangi. Ya, Uniten Bangi. Sangat envy okay kenapa Uniten Muadzam tak ada macam niiii. Ada kandang kuda, swimming pool, padang golf, and their own hotel. Hish jealous jealous. Ceh padahal aku still student Uniten jugak. Ok fine, tumpang bangga lah jugak. :p

# SoRandom
Esok result keluar. Takut giler okay. Tak pernah la cuak macam ni sekali. Well I can smell something, frustrating. Hmmmmm. Takut takut takut takut takutttttttttttt

Ok bye!

Salam Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum. :)

Wow, it has been quite some times since I last log in here. Haha. Please blame my laziness and lack of ideas. Lol I really don't know what to post here. I'm thinking of posting something beneficial but at the end, here we are. Another random, un-beneficial entry, AGAIN. Wakakaa who asked you to came here by the way. I didn't. Now you have to face this. Lalala

(eh ape kau mengarut seh? -..- )

So it's the 2nd day of Ramadhan today. Me 'celebrating' the first day of ramadhan without family wuwuwuww. It was not just sad. It was painful you know. Sigh.. But it's okay anyway, I'll take that as some sort of Challenge from Allah, in Bahasa we called it Dugaan. Hee. Lagi besar dugaan, lagi besar lah ganjaran kan? Amin.. :)

Twilight on the last day of Syaaban. :')

Allah has created such a beautiful world for us to treasure. Never take for granted every little things in our life. Who knows, that little things might give such a huge impact to us in the future. Enjoy the beauty of this month for us to take one step closer to our Creator. May this Ramadhan brings us more barakah. InsyaAllah.

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Happy Ramadhan everyone. :')

Living with dreams ;)

Wishlist #6

Lavenders are just EPIC ! They are beyond awesome ! >.<

Someday, I'm gonna travel the world, and find this place. SOMEDAY =)

p/s:

Salam takde apa takde, tiba-tiba bagitahu wishlist sebelum mati. Hahaha gedik. Itew takde idea nak update lar. Nanti dah ada idea itew update yeww.. Wakakaa. Double gedik.

#Wordless Wednesday

Behind her smile, there's a story you would never

understand.

Kecomelan!

Entry ini penuh dengan kegedikan. Harap maklum.

Ahaks. Seperti yang sedia maklum, aku merupakan seorang penggemar kecomelan (ayat apekah?) Tak kisah la dalam bentuk apa pun, kalau benda tu aku rasa comel, mula lah keluar gedik2 manjeww itew seperti " anyonyoo omey nye diye~ hikss " *muntahbiru* Kadang-kadang tu, batu pun aku boleh cakap comel tau. Betul tak tipu. Kalau tipu pun sape suruh kau percaya wakakakaaa Ok tak lawak.

Sebelum terpesong lebih jauh, baik aku berterus terang je apa sebenarnya motif entry ini. Ceritanya begini, sedang aku bersendirian dalam bilik sambil pintal-pintal rambut (motif?), aku terjumpa blog sorang mamat ni. Ye, MAMAT . Gua tak kenal pun budak ni. Terjumpa je twitter dia masa gua tengah jalan2 dekat Twitter. Ala abang TwitFamous gitew. Lepastu dia ada bagi link blog. Gua pun stalk la apa lagi kahkah. Syiokk juga blog beliau. Eh tetibe ter tukar gaya bahasa.

Ok sambung. Lepastu kan, dalam 1 entry dia tu, dia cakap pasal Simsimi. Ever heard of it? Yeah me neither. Aku ingat kan game ape la, macam comel je bunyi dia. Aku pun search dekat google. Dan kemudian......ohh ya kecomelan di situ! Simsimi adalah binatang warna kuning yang bulat dan sangat comel, yang pandai me-respond kepada pertanyaan kita. Ala-ala Cleverbot jugak la. Tapi ini lebih comel. Hikhikss.

Yang warna kuning tu la dia. Hee aku yang warna kelabu tu. Kita just taip je dekat kotak bawah tu, lepastu berbual la dengan dia. Tapi kadang-kadang 'kecomelan' dia ni boleh jadi annoying jugak, sebab kadang-kadang dia boleh guna bahasa, ehem, agak kasar dan ehem, lucah. Well, yeah. Nama pun robot. Apa dia tahu. Tapi kalau korang guna ayat baik-baik, dia pun balas elok-elok la. 

Oh ye! I find this really awesome! Benda alah ni pandai cakap sarawak pulak tu ! Macam aku la ngahaha tak tipu je. Roommate aku yang ajar tulis sarawak tu. Aku takde la pro sangat pun. *mukamacho.jpg*

Cool gila dia cakap sarawak. =D

Haa siapa-siapa yang rasa macam #foreveralone tak tahu nak buat apa sorang-sorang, try la berbual dengan 'Hot Chick' ni. Hahah. Tapi ingat, jangan ketagih sangat pulak dengan benda ni, dia bukan orang eh. Karang tak pasal-pasal kau kena chop sewel pulak. Depression sangatttt

Ok itu je. Adiosss! Simsimi-channnn *mukacomel.jpg*

Have you?

Have you ever had this feeling,

Like you suddenly remembered something, or someone, or some events in the past, that brings back so much memories on you. Someone whom you try so hard to forget, but you can't, just because they gave you so much to remember.

Like, so much.

Time passes and people changed. You changed. They changed. But we all know memories won't. Maybe you have move on, or being with somebody else. But you can't deny this feeling. You can't stop yourself wondering whether they're doing fine. Just hoping that they are doing good, without you. Even you already know they are. And you can't lie when you really hope that you'll at least get slipped on their mind, even for a second.

Maybe you're the one who still stuck in the past. Maybe you haven't really moved on?

Maybe.

It's just so hard to act like you don't feel anything, when that feeling's really killing you inside. Slowly and torturing.

Have you?

p/s: Gambar gedik saje nak tambahkan unsur dramatik. Problem?

Meoww

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Will you still love me?? hewhew >.<

Eiii comel ape~~~ Ahaks

Kbye

:(

HA-HA
Love story in movies are sucks. Reality is way harder.
Indeed.

Just don't missed the introduction part.

No no. Don't expect too much. This is just a random entry. With no points. I just wanted to talk. Just, talk. If you find it unnecessary for you to continue reading, you may proceed to the upper right hand side of your screen, and close this tab. Ok? Good.


Lol apa jenis introduction la kan. Macam ugutan yang berbaur poyo-ness pun ada. Gelabah lebih. But hey, I did warned you kan, this is just a random entry. Random babbling about random things. Highlight it there, BABBLING. Like, bla bla bla. =_=


I'm totally pissed off tonight. I don't know why so many things annoyed me. Oh, and I hate my timetable for this sem. Don't know if I can make it through! Wuargh! (tak mengeluh, geram je) Dah tu lagi 1 masalah, untuk kelas Japanese tak settle2 lagi. Ada je masalah nya. Oiii hati dah memberontak ni nak balik rumah! My boredom has reached the climax! Nak balik nak balik nak balikkk >.<
Craving for McD. And I miss my bed so badly! My nice and cozy bed. And my dearest babes. Geng2 BPU yang dah laaaama gila tak jumpa! Hari tu tak sempat pun jumpe wuwuwwu


Memang random gila entry ni sampai dalam 1 perenggan ada macam2 perkara random dibahaskan. I've totally lost control of my mind. This is insane!


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Wishlist #5

I would love to live in my OWN big beautiful house, with a big beautiful garden. And not to forget, big swimming pool~! Maybe someday.

p/s: I did warned you in the intro right. This entry is just random. And don't forget to count how many 'random' word used in this entry. HA-HA

Time is GOLD.

Currently at Muadzam. Unbelievable. Entry yang sebelum ni baru je bagitau baru sampai rumah kan. Tiba-tiba entry hari ni pasal dah balik Muadzam semula. Lol. How time flies..

Never mind, i'm coming home again this week. Gonna enjoy this weekend with beloved family. Yeay! This place is just boring. Too boring to be true. Haha. Balik sini just sebab nak buat jadual je. Lalalaa



Adios!

Home

That feeling when you're at home. The smell. The warm environment. The lovely people. You know, all the sweet feelings that you've been missing so badly. And finally you're here. The place where you belong. The place where love is everywhere. Like seriously, everywhere.

Gahhh. I don't even wanna missed a single air, a single breath, a single glance of home. I'm enjoying every little bits of life now.

And do not disturb me. Haha.

Smile. Every minutes counts. ;D

Pink.

Wiiwittttt, blog dah tukar baju lagi la.. Hihi. Alamak lupa pulak nak print screen sebelum tukar tadi. Selalu macam ni tau haishhh. Ah takpela malas nak fikir dah. Lain kali je kita print screen ye.

Fuhh, warna pink di sana sini ! This is so rare! What happened to Anis the purple maniac? Why pink, so sudden? Muehehe. Tiba-tiba rasa macam comel dan menenangkan je warna soft pink ni. That's why I decided to put this colour as the main theme colour for this beloved baby (read=blog). Sebelum ni punya theme, dia tak berapa menonjol sangat. Macam malu-malu kucing gitu sebab dia share dengan kaler pastel brown and pastel baby blue. Kali ni haa amik kau, background blog ni dia conquer semua ! (p/s, 'dia' di sini adalah si kaler PINK) ^_^

Somehow I think macam girly gila blog ni. Hahah. And what's with the Hello Kitty?? ahaks layannn. Before this I've tried red, white+blue, black+purple dan yang lain-lain kaler yang kebanyakannya tak bertahan pun seminggu, lepas tu tukar lagi. Haha. Rasanya paling lama aku pakai tema kaler white+blue tu untuk beberapa bulan. Hihi masa tu kononnya nak biar blog ni simple and (konon-konon) matang la. Padahal lepas tu tukar template tema ladybird kaler merah pulak. Dah tak matang balik, sekejap je matang. Wakakakaa

Eh ape aku merapu ni esok nak gerak pagi la, tapi still tak tido-tido lagi ni !

Ok then, Goodnight world~ *hugs & kisses virtually*

Hoorayy Hooraayy

Yeayy exam dah habis! Now it's time to enjoy enjoy enjoyy! Ceh lebih-lebih pulak kan. Haha. Tak sabar ni nak balik rumah, nak duduk depan tv melepak lama-lama, makan puas-puas (makan je tau), keluar jalan-jalan, meet my pretty babes, gossiping, doing nothing, but happy! hahah. Lega betul rasa dah habis exam ni. Ringan kepala otak oii! Tension sungguh sepanjang 2 minggu exam ni. >.<

Tomorrow I'll be leaving dearest Muadzam pukul 10.30 pagi. Terpaksa lah naik bas this time, disebabkan tomorrow is wednesday, a.k.a working day, ayah tak dapat datang amik. Sobs sobs. Nasib baik barang tak banyak. Pheww.. Wuu serious tak sabar nak balik ni. Banyak dah plan nak buat dekat rumah ni.. Nanti kalau aku rajin update, aku update ye. Maklumlah, bila dah dekat rumah, banyak aktiviti nak buat so no time nak online lama2. Ceh kau macam ni la kan! Masa dekat Muadzam bila kebosanan, laptop ni jela peneman 'sehidup semati' kononnya. Balik kelas je cari laptop, balik exam pun cari laptop. Lepastu dah dekat KL hampeh, habis madu sepah dibuang ! -bentak hati kecilku. Wakakaa

Apa lah aku merepek meraban kan. Okay now it's packing time! Baju pun tak simpan lagi dalam beg. Serabut nak exam punya pasal.. (alasan je tu). Adiosa~!

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Wishlist #4

What a beautiful place ;')

Kehidupan itu sendiri adalah satu rahmat. =)

Bila fikiran rasional dan positif mula menguasai diri, baru tersedar yang kadang-kadang aku lupa untuk bersyukur.

Bersyukur atas segala nikmat yang ada pada aku.

Nikmat kasih sayang dari ibu ayah, adik-adik, keluarga, kawan-kawan2.

Nikmat dapat bernafas dengan lancar.

Nikmat makan, minum, tidur..

Nikmat tersenyum, ketawa, menangis. Eii menangis pun nikmat tau, lepas nangis kan rasa legaaaa je. ahaks.

Banyak lagi la nikmat-nikmat yang tak terucap oleh kata-kata. Lagi-lagi,

nikmat kesihatan.

Bersyukur sangat dalam tempoh beberapa tahun kebelakangan ni, Allah kurniakan nikmat kesihatan yang baik. Demam pun jarang sekali datang singgah. Batuk dan selsema tu biasalah. Untuk hapuskan dosa-dosa kecil. InsyaAllah. Walaupun ada masa tu ada beberapa sakit ngade-ngade singgah, macam migrain melampau ataupun gastrik, masih boleh survived dengan jayanya. Alhamdulillah. (tak payah 'dengan jayanya' sangat kot anis)

Atleast tak perlu sampai pergi hospital. Kena cucuk jarum ambil darah semua. Gosh, i just can't bear with all that 'things' anymore. You know, that hospital thingy. That ubat-ubatan thingy. Taip ni je pun macam berderau je darah ku yang manis ni haa. Is this somehow called, Phobia? Haha maybe.

Kadang-kadang lupa nak bersyukur, bahawa aku tak perlu melalui saat-saat keperitan macam tu. Aku rasa next time kalau aku kena cucuk jarum yang stok gedang-gedang tu, memang koma la terus jawabnya. Bukan pengsan lagi dah. Haha. Eh entah la. Rasa macam tak dapat bayangkan macam mana nak menanggung nya. Weh bayangkan la jarum dia tu weh, size pensel shaker tu wehhhh (haha tipu)

Tu lah kan, kadang-kadang bila terlalu seronok sangat dengan hidup ni, kita lupa nak bersyukur. Selalu mengeluh padahal masalah tu boleh je diselesaikan. Tak la sebesar mana. Bukannya kau di diagnos ada leukimia, boleh hidup 3 bulan je lagi. Kalau yang tu, memang la rasa sedih. Rasa masih belum puas je lagi nak hidup kat dunia ni. Ini tak, baru gaduh dengan boyprengg habis semua lelaki dekat dunia ni kena maki lepastu mula rasa konon takde harapan hidup. Haha kelakar betul.

Pesanan untuk kawan-kawan semua dan terutamanya untuk diri sendiri, bila tengah sedih tu, rasa macam masalah datang bertimpa-timpa, rasa macam semua bebanan dekat dunia ni atas bahu kita, cuba compare nasib kita tu dengan orang lain yang jauuhhhhh lebih malang. Yeah I know this is cliche, but really, it's the fact, semalang-malang nasib yang kita tengah hadapi, ada lagi yang LAGI tak se-beruntung kita dekat luar sana. Atleast kita ada katil untuk tidur, ada bumbung untuk berteduh. Ada ubat bila sakit, ada ibu bila sedih. Ada ayah bila nak bermanja. Huhuuu tiba-tiba saya rindu ibu ayah saya. Nak balikkkkk wuwuww =(

Betul. Bila kita set kan mind kita macam ni, kita akan lebih mensyukuri hidup ni. Ada orang dekat luar sana tu takde rumah nak berteduh, takde ubat bila sakit, tanda keluarga bila sedih. Lagi unfortunate kan nasib mereka.. :'/

Enjoy and appreciate your body everyday, every time, every seconds! Because you won't know, in the next few seconds, whether you still have those eyes, hands, and legs or not. So, appreciate.

In life, always, APPRECIATE. And be THANKFUL. The secret of happiness is appreciation of what you've got. Whether it's a little, or a lot.

Life itself is a bless.

=)


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Wishlist #3

Tick tock tick tock..

Tak sabarnya nak habis cepat 2 minggu yang menyeksakan ni. I hate final exams! I hate the pressure, the stress, the expectations, the painful reality. This is unbearable! I wanna go home. I want my bed. I wanna watch tv while lying on the couch. I wanna gossiping with my sis. I wanna hang out makan-makan with my gengs. I wanna bake some cakes or cookies or pizza..,or anything. Anything that I want. Anything that could make me happy. Happier than now. I don't wanna be here. I can't feel my soul in here. I can't feel the world in here.



I just wanna go home.




:'(

Time is running out.

Counting days to final exam.

And yes, i'm not ready yet.

Forever, never ready.

Typical me.

And now I'm so stress.

I couldn't help myself.

I'm procrastinating and I know it.

I'm scared.




Like really scared.

(speechless)

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Wishlist #2

And have a beautiful garden wedding theme.

With lots and lots of fresh white lilies, roses, and orchids.

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.

.

When I say lots, I really meant it.

Teruja!

Yabedabeduuu! Esok aku akan meninggalkan tanah Muadzam Shah, finally! Tak sabar ni nak balik rumah~! Dah sebulan jugak la tak balik ni. Huu. Padahalnye final exam belum start lagi ni. Ada lagi seminggu. Eh tak sengaja pulak ter'mention' FINAL EXAM ! Eh ter caps lock pulak. Eh? -..-

Esok sejurus saja menjejakkan kaki di rumah, nak start projek baking cupcakes. Nak bawak balik kampung sempena kakak sedara aku bertunang. Tapi bukan untuk buat hantaran pertunangan la. Untuk kudap-kudap je. Hihi (kudap-kudap = kunyah-kunyah) Itu pun atas permintaan bonda tercinta, suruh buatkan cupcakes untuk bawak balik kampung. Sebagai ganjaran, beliau kata beliau akan belanja KFC. Eheh. KFC pun jadi lah kan. Dah macam hadiah untuk budak darjah 6 sebab dapat markah matematik A je. :p

Sebenarnya aku tahu niat asal ibu nak bagitau kat orang kampung, anak dia pandai masak. Wakakaka ibuku sangat memahami. I lep you ibu. Peace! (^_^)Y



Wishlist  #1

Nak macam niiiii !

Tapi, dapat ke aku kahwin?

Travel back, down that road.

It’s been so long since I last wrote here. Sighhh. Blame the busy-ness that attacks me! All the tutorials, ‘never-ending’ assignments, quizzes bla blaaa. Ok fine, blame me for being so lazy to update here since I don’t know what to update. Haha. No interesting story I can tell. Perhaps. Hihi. Actually I don't feel like sharing the interesting story that happened to me this past few weeks. Let it sit quietly in my memories je lah ye. ^,^

So, today I’ve completed my LAST presentation for this sem. Public Speaking!! Wuaaa last night I slept at 5 am you know, just to complete everything. Yeah blame the procrastination inside me. Sendiri buat, sendiri tanggung. Haha serves your right siapa suruh delay2 kerja! >.>

But the presentation went so well I guess! Madam Lilie doesn’t complaint much and she was satisfied, I guess. . Haha. Because she was smiling all the way through our presentation (ß ignore the grammar freak) Wakakaa. I guess maybe we had quite eye-catching topic, The ‘Deadly’ Heels.  And I’m so glad that I wasn’t nervous at all and able to maintain ‘COOL’ even though there were soooo many people in the room. No it’s not a room, it’s a HALL! A big lecture hall you know. Luckily they got the microphone so I don’t have to force myself to push my ‘shy-shy’ voice out.  Haha gedikss

And now, I am supposed to do my LAASSTTT assignment for this sem, the marketing project report. Weeee~ But we only done a little and this Friday is the deadline! And many of our group members are going back to their hometown tomorrow! Gahhh. Don’t know if we could make it or not. But you know, by hook or by crook, we must get it done. Ganbatte ne !

Ok jom layan gambar photo-gediks over this past few weeks. Wikikiii (gelak apekah ini?)

Anish hitam mata macam panda. HA-HA

tandas memang port peberet budak perempuan untuk photoshoot

dan menggedik dengan bestfwen yang sama kepala otak. >.<

Ini berlakon! Hipokrito mi amor! *Geng Marketing Project*

ini pula geng bola jaring saya hari itu. bahagianya kami =D

bahagianya mereka! xD

eh tengok ada budak gedik menangis sebab tension asyik kalah. Bhahaha

nasib baik team-mate supportive. :')

budak gedik tiba-tiba posing tengah padang.

p/s: percayalah ini candid! betul tak tipuuuu! >.<

Eh dah la tu menggedik nye. >_______<

Adios!

Sudah jatuh, dihempap KLCC

Melampau dia punya peribahasa. Hiperbola sungguh. Bola pun tak hyper sebegitu. Wakaka lawak hambar anis. Hambar.. Jadi mengapakah dengan tajuk yang macam mintak simpati tapi sebenarnya lebih mengundang kepada pelempang? Haha anis kalau tak mintak pelempang sehari memang tak sah kan. Susah la kalau orang suka jealous dengan anis sikit-sikit nak lempang anis. =_= And anis ni kalau tak mengarut masa introduction sampai berjela-jela memang tak sah. Tak sah. Haram. Eh tak, gurau je. Eh ape ni. Eh. *lempang*

Geli bila bahasakan diri dengan 'anis' dalam blog sendiri yang dah ibarat saudara kembar sendiri. (tipu je saudara kembar, aku tak suka ada kembar sebab nanti semua benda kena sama eh mana aci ! )

Ok sambung. Sebenarnya hari ni rasa macam nak menangis je walaupun memang dah menangis pun, lol anis memang tak kuat jiwa raga sikit-sikit nak menangis. Yela mana tak nya, dah la tadi pagi tadi lepas kelas terus pergi bermati-matian dengan rakan2 pergi settlekan masalah PTPTN dan yuran pengajian bla3 semua. Ya, aku tak pakai scholarship pun. PTPTN je. Bersyukur la ada ptptn nak tolong kan. Hmm sem depan kita pakai scholar ya, bye PT~~(nama manja ptptn) Lepas dah habis tenaga pergi settle benda tu semua, dengan perut yang bernyanyi riang kerana mintak diisi, aku pun melangkah malas pergi bank untuk withdraw duit... Sampai je dekat bank, deymmmm! Mana kad aku? Mana kad aku??? Habis lah aku geledah beg tu depan2 bank, keluarkan semua barang semata2 nak cari kad atm CIMB comel warna merah. Teringat pulak dulu suka gila bila ada spotcheck, sebab dapat geledah beg orang dengan rakus! >:)

Confirm, dalam beg takde. Call roommate di rumah, beliau pun kata takde kat rumah. Ok nak nangis dah tu. Nak taknak kena buat baru jugak. Tak pasal2 la kawan2 kena tunggu tuan puteri. Hahah. Dalam setengah jam lebih sikit, akhirnya berjaya mendapat kad baru. Lega alhamdulillah~

Lepas dah keluarkan duit, dapatlah pergi makan, habis makan pergi library siapkan assignment. Bayangkan dari tengahari sampai pukul 6 petang, bertapa dalam library buat assignment tapi tak siap2 jugak. Padahal kitorang buat kerja tau takde gosip2 pun ! Em, ade la sikit. >.<

Dah bosan dekat library, pulang ke rumah dengan tulang temulang yang macam dah patah riuk. Sampai je rumah, deymmmm lagi ! Sesuatu mengejutkan telah berlaku. Pokok kaktus aku terjatuh dari kedudukan dia. Tanah bersepah2 kat lantai! Dah la tengah badan extreme penat, kena kemas benda tu pulak. Adoiiii! Dah la kaktus tu orang bagi.. Terasa diri ni tak berguna tau sebab tak jaga elok2.. Huhuuu. Tapi dah settle dah sekarang. Tadi pegi culik tanah dekat pasu kat bawah rumah untuk tanam semula pokok. Hihi. Harap dia dapat hidup subur dengan tanah baru tu. :)

Nasib baik lah semua masalah dapat diselesaikan hari ni jugak.. Alhamdulillah.. Tadi masa kad hilang tu, terfikir jugak. Mungkin Allah mahu menguji aku. Mungkin aku terlalu leka dengan kerja yang belambak tu sampai lupa menyebut alhamdulillah pada Dia kebelakangan ni. Aku bersyukur bila Dia uji aku, sebab aku tahu Allah uji aku kerana Dia taknak aku lupakan Dia. Kerana Dia pun tak pernah lupakan aku. Alhamdulillah. :')

Ok maybe tajuk tu extreme sangat kot. Masalahnya tak ada lah sebesar mana pun. Propa je lebih minah ni kikiki ^__^

Pancit weh pancit!

So, nak dijadikan cerita. Tadi training untuk game netball. It was the FIRST training for us, and for me, it was really the first EXERCISE ever after I graduated highschool. Serious lepas habis sekolah menengah, mana ada exercise yang sebegitu punya exercise. Main sport semua tu kan. Haha. So tadi we had our training untuk preparation for this coming tournament which will be held on THIS SATURDAY.

Lagi berapa hari je tinggal dan masih terhegeh hegeh kan. Haha. Dulu masa sekolah menengah aku selalu jadi GA. Memang paling suka jadi GA sebab boleh lari and shoot. Bajet la power and stamina kuat. (dulu masa sekolah memang la T_T ) Ha lepastu tadi tergedik2 la nak jadi GA. Ya ampun, belum lagi separuh masa pertama, macam nak mati je rasa! Serius cannot go! Haha. Pancit weh tengah-tengah game. Tapi aku kuatkan semangat, main jugak la.

Sampai satu tahap, aku rasa nafas macam dah tersekat dekat dada. Sakit gila rasanya! Tak tahulah apa yang sakit tapi memang sakit sangat seluruh organ2 dalam badan! Aku nak mintak orang gantikan, takde orang yang free pulak. Dah la tu, lawan dengan senior yang SUMPAH AWESOME GILA HEBAT BADAN TOUGH JEALOUS TAU TAKKK! Haaa amik kau. =_=

Last-last nya, aku tukar position, jadi GK. Weh serious tak tahan weh. Kalau aku teruskan jugak jadi GA tu alamat malam ni tidur hospital la jawabnya. HAHA (tak lawak) Dah jadi GK pun tak tahan gak. Last-last aku mintak out. Hee out masa main tadi je. Bukan out dari team hew hew.

So conclusionnya sekarang, aku rasa stamina badan aku ni sangat sangat sangat lah dah merosot, sebab lama tak exercise dan bersukan. Padahalnya tadi keinginan tu membuak-buak sangat nak main. Nak buat macam mana kan. Susah la jadi orang kurang stamina ni. Haih kalau la aku ni kuat. Huuuu. Macam mana la masa tournament nanti. Kena siap2 kad insurans so that kalau apa2 jadi, boleh claim. Haha entah apa kaitan. >,>

So....

Yeah ! That's why I keep holding on ! :D

Tiba-tiba keluar segmen motivasi diri sendiri.

And I ended up here.

Rasa macam ada benda je yang urgent yang sepatutnya dibuat dengan segera, tapi otak ni macam tak dapat figure out apa bendanya. Oh, kalau soal assignmentsssss tu, memang otak aku dah lama figure out cuma buat2 lupa je. Maklumlah, procrastinator tegar. Tapi ni tak. Macam ada something yang belum selesai yang aku kena buat. Apa ye? Isyak, dah.. Maghrib, duhh, lagi la dah.

Perah punya perah otak ni sampai dah kering, tak dapat juga figure out apa dia benda yang belum selesai tu. jadi, I ended up doing this. Haha. Terjumpa pulak benda ni dekat blog kawan lama aku, Efnadia. Eh blog kita sama tema la kaler merah mak ngah gituww. Hihi baru hotsetap sikit kan. Dulu masa zaman kegemilangan blogging, selalu main tag2 macam ni]. Eh kau cakap macam blogging ni dah nak pupus je. Padahal megah je lagi aku tengok. >:O

So, Ef sekarang study dekat Egypt ambik Dentistry. Memang dari sekolah dulu dia ni budak pandai. Hehe. Eh wait, Egypt? Tiba-tiba sesuatu yang lain terlintas dalam fikiran. Sesuatu ke, seseorang? Hmm

Oi oi ni apahal introduction je dah 3 perenggan??? Gosh. Ok jom start.

Is it easy for someone to make you smile?
Yes. But sometimes it depends on the person too. >.<

Tell me why you like the last song you listened to?
Reminds me of someone whom once very special in my life.

What color are your eyes?
Black. As what that I can see..

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
In the bus. On the way back from KL to Muadzam. Last week.

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?
One. My father.

What would your name be without the first three letters?

Ani s. S. Haha was that even a name?

Last thing you touched not computer-related?
Handphone.

What colors are you wearing right now?Black tracksuit and a black t shirt. Yeah I'm a woman in Black! >:D

You currently in a fight with someone?
None. I'm enjoying my life so no time to fight.

Have you ever stood up for someone you hardly knew?
Not that I can remember. Em, nope.

Do you have an older brother?
No. I wish I had one.

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?
Yes. Sometimes.

Do you look at the keyboard when you type?
I do.

What are you listening to right now?
Saat Terakhir by ST 12. Lol it's on the playlist. So it randomly played. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

Do you laugh a lot?
I do. But not tonight. Headache killing me !

Are you ticklish?
Try me.

What always makes you feel better when you're upset?
Sleeeeeep. And of course solat. Allah always comes first. ;')

Have you ever been on a boat?
Yes.

Last person you gave a hug to?
My lil bro, Izat. Wuwuwww I miss him :'(

Tell me about the shirt/shirts you're wearing.
Ibu bought it for me. Love you forever ibu. :')

Do you have plans for today?
It is already 11.54pm so yeah, what else should I do? Sleeeeeepp bebeh

When is the last time you took a nap?
8.00pm just now. Haha it was only 10 minutes nap. I was freaking tired!

What's on your mind now?
I also can't figure out! Otak serabut serabut serabut! And I miss my family so much.

Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
In between.

What instant messaging service do you use?
Does skype considered as instant messaging? Haha yeah I'm a skyperrrr

How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night?
I dunno. It's depends on situation and my tiredness level.

Do you have any siblings? Do you get along?
Yes. 2 lil sisters and a lil brother. I love them more than myself.

What are you drinking?
Plain water. It's the best for your health. Hewhew

Honestly, if you could go back 8 months and change something, would you?
Yes. So many things to fix up. and I could have done better on my first sem of degree year.

Do you know what're you wearing tomorrow?
Not decide yet.



P/s: Why is it so hard to forget and letting go?