membebel

I am deadly madly BOREDDD.

Malam ni aku rasa macam takde tujuan hidup. Kosong.

Sebenarnya tak sunyi. Housemates ada. Roommate ada.

Tapi aku tak tahu mana pergi semangat hidup aku untuk bercakap dan berketawa(?)

Waaarghh I can't feel my self right now!

Macam fikiran tu melayang-layang entah dekat mana,

tapi badan aku stuck dekat sini. =__=

Oh tidaaaakk~ *buat gaya saloma*

Tetibe.

Tengok, cara aku posting pun dah lain macam.

tak macam selalu pun? eh ni betul ke Anis ni? Eh eh?

Ok sangat tak sabar nak balik esok. Malam esok aku dah ada dekat rumah tercinta,

bersama keluarga tercinta, katil tercinta, bantal tercinta, selimut tercinta,

semua jenis kecintaan yang ada dekat rumah tu akan buat aku lebih bahagia. (drama queen)

rasa macam balik rumah kali ni taknak balik Muadzam dah!!

kat sini bosann.

aku nak berehat goyang kaki kat rumah, tengok tv sampai juling,

main masak-masak, tengok adik2 aku membesar.. :')

duhh dah macam gaya ibu-ibu pulak *buek muntah*

but serious! I want to be with my family until... until... until...

until I get bored? hahaha. yang pasti cuti 3 hari setengah tu tak cukup la!!!!

ok dah diam.

Wordmore Wednesday

I wanna leave my footprints on the sands of time
Know there was something that, and something that I left behind
When I leave this world, I'll leave no regrets
Leave something to remember, so they won't forget
I was here

I lived, I loved
I was here
I did, I've done, everything that I wanted
And it was more than I thought it would be
I will leave my mark so everyone will know
I was here

I want to say I lived each day, until I die
And know that I meant something in, somebody's life
The hearts I have touched, will be the proof that I leave
That I made a difference, and this world will see
I was here

I just want them to know
That I gave my all, did my best
Brought someone to hapiness
Left this world a little better just because
I was here.

- I was Here, Beyonce.

Random Awesome. Awesome is me.

So, hye~ Haha no interesting story to share for today pun. Saje je nak membebel dekat sini which also means will buang you all punya masa je. hewhewhew. I warning awal2 tau. Kalau you all rasa ada banyak masa nak dibazirkan, teruskanlah membaca. Eh sejak bila aku jadi gedik sebegini?

Hari ni public holiday sempena Maulidur Rasul, so bila dah 'holiday' tu paham2 jela kan. Memang tak la untuk tuan puteri yang 'rajin' macam aku ni untuk bangun awal. Hahah. Aunty2 di luar sana, tolong la batalkan niat aunty untuk jadikan saya menantu. Wahahah. Berani gila jatuhkan reputation sendiri. Tak tak, gurau-gurau je okay tak boleh gurau pegi surau. Err tapi kan, memang betul pun aku terbangun lewat hari ni. *facepalm*

Aku terbangun tadi pun sebab ibu call yang secara tak langsung telah mematikan mimpi indahku. Tau tak anak ibu yang hebat ni tengah mimpi buat kek tadi?! Hahaha. Serious, aku tengah syok2 mimpi buat cake, step by step lagitu tau, tetibe hancur berkecai apabila telefon berbunyi dengan volume nya yang paling highest (saje letak highest sebab aku ni mmg pekak sikit kadang2) dan lantas mematikan segala mimpi indahku~ Wuwuwu dah cakap dah dulu kau patut amik sastera anis. Mana tahu sekarang ni dah jadi penulis novel yang berjaya. Pastu novel kau orang buat jadi movie box office punya. Kalah la Ombak Rindu tu for sure.

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Esok kelas dah start, jadi masa untuk dibuang dapatla dikurangkan. Ahh akhirnyaaa~~ Setelah 4 hari melopong kat rumah. Oh ye, sekarang ni aku sangatlah ketidak sabaran menunggu kedatangan Big Mac import from KL by Ein yang dijangka tiba malam ni. Cepat la ein lapaq dah ni. Hihi. Dekat Muadzam ni memang tak mungkin la nak nampak kelibat Mcd, KFC, apatahlagi Secret Recipe, Burger King dan yang sewaktu dengannya tuu. Jadi bila kawan anda balik KL, atau ke mana2 tempat yang ada benda2 ni semua, silalah ambil kesempatan untuk meng-order semua itu dari dia. That's what friends are for right? Kahkah.

Ok enough membebel. Aku dah cakap dah, buang masa je kau baca. Takde faedah pun entry kali ni. *buatmukakejam* Muahahaha


#random :

hmm. true.

Touching. :')

Then a boy replied..

We boys dont get butterflies, we get fireworks. We dont have you on our mind 24/7, but we do have you on our hearts. Often, yes we wait for you to go online, sometimes simply even just being online makes our heart skip a beat, even if we dont talk. Whenever you talk to us, our face forms that half-smile; it means we are happy but are trying our hardest to not show it, and fail at hiding it. We do miss you all the time; granted, we would spend all our time with you if possible. We dont think of the smallest things you say, we think of every word you say, panicking at every single word, trying to define what it really means, to read between the lines. But wait there is more.

We would love you in a million ways. And once we start loving you there is no going back for us. No matter how hard we try we will always love a girl that has touched us. Us boys when in love will think of that girl first thing in the morning, and think of that girl last before we sleep at night. Whenever we see a couple, our thoughts immediately jump to that girl, and imagine that the couple was us. Every single detail about her is loved; the way she walks, talks, speaks. The sound of her voice. Her laughter. The sparkle in her eyes. Her shy smile. The way she dresses. That cute face she makes when shes asleep. And the way she says our name that our hearts just explode with mirth, a simple act that no-one else can replicate.

A boy in love with a girl is no simple thing, though ladies stereotype us guys as simple. A man in love is not simple. No. He will be unpredictable. He will be persistent, stubborn, and given the circumstances, if it means carrying you from one side of the world to the other to win your heart, a man in love would. He will be a martyr, giving his all and asking for almost none. He will show you how to appreciate the beauty of the world in a thousand ways, and then he will tell you how much he appreciates your beauty in a million ways. 

A man in love is no simple thing.




*Copypaste from Tumblr. =)

For everyone.

Sometimes, things happened when we never expected it to be.

Let say, you are madly deeply in love with that certain someone. You imagine your future with him in it. You build dreams together, you grow the love together hoping that everything will work as you plans. But in the end, he is still doesn't belong to you.

Or, you are doing really great in school, have great friends, doing well in sports, passes exams and quizzes with flying colours, has a very supportive and loving parents. Everything, that are worth living.

But suddenly, you heard that your bestfriend died. Your one and only bestfriend since you are in the primary school. Your only bestfriend who walks with you everyday to school, who are always there to wipe your tears, to listen to your grief, to lend her shoulder every time you feels like crying. And now she's gone. Half of you is GONE. How can you move on?

Or, suddenly you find out that you can't play sports anymore, because you've been diagnosed with a disease that won't let you run anymore, even to let you live any longer. Have you ever imagine that feeling of knowing that you can't live any longer after all the dreams that you plans for your future?


Life is cruel.


But yet, God always knows better than you. Allah, knows better than you. Things happened for a reason. Maybe, when your relationship with that certain someone doesn't work out, you'll find another someone that a lot more better than him.
Maybe, if your bestfriend didn't died, you won't learn to appreciate people around you. You'll just take everything, or everyone for granted.
Maybe, if you doesn't have the disease that won't let you live any longer, you will never learn to appreciate LIFE.

" I asked God to give me some sunshine, but instead, He gives me rain. I do not understand why? Why wouldn't He gives me what I need? Then when the rain stops, and the sun shines again, only then I know that a beautiful rainbow are waiting behind that clouds. Smiling with the sun, for me. "

Learn to accept fate. If you are going through a hard time, KEEP GOING.

=)

Wordless Wednesday #KebesaranNya.

- Muadzam Shah, 6.32pm, 31 Dec 2011.

Love Chooses You

If you find yourself in love with someone, and that someone does not love you, be gentle to yourself, there is nothing wrong with u, but love just did not choose to rest in that someone's heart.

If you find someone in love with you, and you cannot answer that love, feel honored that love has came by and called on your door, but gently refuse the feeling you cannot return, as love did not choose to settle in your heart.

If you find yourself in love with someone and the love return, it still can happen that love chooses to leave..do not try to reclaim it and do not assess any blame, let it go. Despite the pain, there is a reason and meaning to this..you cannot choose love by yourself, LOVE CHOOSES YOU =)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Dengan ini, saya dengan rasminya telah memulakan semester baru sebagai pelajar ijazah. Tahniah diucapkan kepada saya. Haha. Nak kata teruja, memang tak la. Nak kata sedih pun langsung tak. Cuma sedih sikit terpaksa meninggalkan 'teddy bear' kesayangan kat rumah tu. Huhu. Entahla, tak ada feel pun masuk sem baru ni. Cuma berharap supaya sem ni menjanjikan yang lebih baik dari sebelum ni. InsyaAllah. Aminnnn. Hihi.

'teddy bear' kesayangan tengah main pasir kononnya nak buat istana ala2 istana Balqis tu

ok tipu.

kononnya nak join kakak2 dia melompat tapi tak sedar diri terlalu

berat untuk melompat. hahaha comel je~

rindu already. T__T

Ok nak pergi mandi wangi-wangi pastu pergi melantak dengan ein tersayang dekat foodcourt (tu je yang mampu) lepas tu tengok AJL secara online. Wahh seronoknya hati dapat hidup di zaman yang serba moden ni. Wahahah. Semoga line internet tak buat hal malam ni. Or else, terpaksa menebalkan muka pergi ketuk rumah member yang ada tv semata-mata nak tengok AJL. Semangat kesukanan gitu *mana kaitannya entah?

Friday.

Never forget, Never regrets :')

Heartbeats fast. Colors and promises

How to be brave, how can I love

When I'm afraid to fall.

I kinda miss my school days. Like seriously. Really. Really miss them. Dulu teringat masa bertugas time rehat tu, kena jaga dekat belakang kantin sekolah. Kat situ memang port budak2 yang terlebih adrenalin a.k.a NAKAL tahap maksimum punya lah. Kalau dah habis makan, selamba badak dia je tinggalkan pinggan mangkuk. Sebagai pengawas yang poyo bertanggungjawab, aku lah yang selalu tegur diorang. Kengkadang tu diorang buat taktau je. Memang cari nahas la kan. Aku pun ape lagi, sekali tengking je cukup. Haha. Lepastu aku paling bahagia bila dapat rampas henfon budak2 yang tak dengar cakap, orang dah kata jangan bawak phone curi2 gi sekolah, kau degil. Rasakan la. (untold story: lepas habis sekolah diorang cari aku balas dendam )

But watching you stand alone,

All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

Dulu sebelum aku jadi pengawas, memang aku meluat habis la dengan spesies pengawas ni. Poyo tak boleh blah. Bajet good good je. Diorang ingat diorang sape nak arah2 kan orang? Sepak kanggg. Haha. Tapi lepas aku rasa sendiri macam mana 'gah'nya jadi pengawas ni, baru faham sebenarnya itu semua tanggungjawab yang perlu diselesaikan. Ingat pengawas semua tu nak sangat ke sebok2 jaga tepi kain orang, rampas liquid paper, rampas henfon orang (eh, mcm aku je) Semua tu kerana TANGGUNGJAWAB. Kang kalau tak buat, kena maki dengan cikgu disiplin, kena pecat, sape nak jawab? Kalau lepas dekat dunia ni pun, nanti dekat akhirat bila kena soal tentang tanggungjawab sebagai pengawas yang tak dijalankan dengan betul, ha macam mana? Kau nak tolong jawabkan?? So jangan nak simply mengata2 kami spesies pengawas ni. Eh? Emo pulak?

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don't be afraid I have loved you for a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more.

Lepas tu dulu, masa zaman form 4 and form 5, dalam kelas aku duduk dekat sebelah kartunis paling hebat, paling aku kagumi (selain Ben & Kaoru) iaitu Ainul Hakimah! Wuuu rindu gile dekat ainul. Lepas habis sekolah dah JARANG gile contact dia. Dulu masa sekolah, kitorang ada usahasama buat komik. Aku buat storyboard, dia lukis. Memang dapat sambutan ah komik kitorang tu. Siap plan nak hantar dekat Gempak Starz, tapi entah kenapa tak hantar2 pun sampai sekarang. Haha. Takpe, simpan jadi kenangan pun dah cukup. :')

ainul sayang. i miss you. :')

Lagi satu, dulu aku ada minat dekat sorang budak laki ni, athlete sekolah pulak tu. Main bola sepak. Haha my  'Mr Soccer'. Aku minat dia dari form 2. Jadi Silent Secret Admire selama 3 tahun, form 2 sampai form 5 tau. Hebat tak hebat? Sampai kan salah satu watak dalam komik aku tu, diadaptasi dari dia. Hihi. Masa tu memang hati takde untuk orang lain, dia sorang je dah cukup. Walaupun ada la beberapa orang skandal (la kononnya), hati tetap nak dia. Tapi nak buat macam mana, Mr Soccer tak pernah respon. Sebab aku yang tak pernah cakap kot? Haha padan muka. By the way, that was few years ago. Sekarang dia pun dah ada hidup baru, awek baru kot? Aku pun dah tak menaruh harapan tinggi macam dulu. :p

Time stands still, Beauty in all she is

I will be brave, I will not let anything take away

What's standing in front of me.

Every breath, Every hour has come to this.

One step closer

geng gosip. Ahh rinduuu~

Paling best, bila cikgu tak masuk kelas, memang sekelip mata kelas bertukar jadi Pasar Tani. Haha. Main truth or dare, bergosip, budak laki buat adegan Back flip kat belakang kelas. Haha. :') Masa main truth or dare, aku pernah kena 'Dare' pegi confess dekat Mr Soccer and ajak dia couple. Hahahah gila!  Diorang bagi masa, lepas abis rehat aku kena pegi confess. Tak boleh blah. Aku pun ape lagi, masa rehat tu main taktik kotor. Aku pergi jumpe dia, cakap kat dia awal2 aku kena 'Dare' oleh mereka untuk cakap "Jom kita couple?". Aku bagitau awal2 supaya dia tak fikir yang aku betul2 suka dia. Padahal............. Haha pandai kau cover nyahh. Dia pun sporting je, dia cakap ok. Penyudahnya lepas rehat aku pegi teruskan 'Dare' aku tu, dengan satu kelas memandang. =___=" Ketaq lutut tau. Haha. Paling best bila dia balas, " Apa salahnya.." Rasa macam terbang dekat kayangan weh! Tapi bila teringat yang aku dah bagi tau dia awal2 yang semua ni hanya olok2 belaka, aku pun terfikir maybe jawapan dia tu pun hanya olok2. T___T

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don't be afraid I have loved you

For a thousand years

I love you a thousand more

Kelakar la bila teringat kisah2 zaman sekolah dulu. Cinta monyet, friendship. What a life~ :) Oh lagi satu! Masa form 5, sekolah kitorang ada pertandingan lakonan. Somekind like theater. Mini theater. Haha. Kelas aku pilih nak buat cerita Phantom of the Opera. Aku jadi watak dancer je. Bukan heroin punn. Watak dancer means kena dance la kan. Huu memang best. Kitorang kena menari ballroom dance. Rehearsal paling best, sebab bebas nak menari2. Haha. And, part paling best, pasangan aku ialah Mr Soccer! Seronok bukan kepalang dapat menari dengan 'putera idaman'. Lagu kitorang masa tu, 'I Want To Spend My Lifetime Loving You', ala lagu tema cerita Zorro tu. Hihi. Taaapiiii, malangnya, masa hari bersejarah tu, aku tak dapat datang, sebab kena ikut family balik kampung. SO SAD! Nasib baik watak aku cuma dancer je, boleh diorang cari pengganti cepat2. And plus, adegan menari tak diluluskan cikgu, sebab ada scene pegang2 tangan. Hahaha. Lega jugak la aku sebab Mr Soccer aku tak kena menari dengan orang lain. Kahkahkah. Kelakar betul la. Rinduuuu sekolah! Eh, rindu sekolah ke rindu lain? Hihi. :')

graduation day 2009. :')

geng Phantom of the Opera. :') Sadly I'm not there. Hmm

4 Gamma, 2008.

5 Gamma, 2009.

Ok enough about school days. Hmm, nanti bila dah habis belajar dekat U ni, mesti rindu kampus pulak kan. Haha biasa la tu kan. Eh panjang gila entry kali ni. Sesiapa yang berjaya baca sampai habis ni memang gua respect la sama lu! Mesti pembaca setia kan? Haha. Thank you semua. :') Kalau aku rajin, aku update panjang-panjang lagi okay? Adios~ 

And all along I believed I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I love you for a thousand more.

- Christina Perri, A Thousand Years.

try to count the stars. i want you that much.

Dear Fahrin Ahmad,

Please, be my Mr Superman. My ONLY, Mr Superman. Wuuuuu

 

picture credit : Google.

p/s : 

Meroyan pulak malam2 buta. By the way, ada tak Fahrin Ahmad Junior untuk aku?

Please. Aku nak. (ceh suka hati je kau)